Chapter 3: Smile
Tori...he was right. I did like Nicholas. Ever since the day we met, to me, he was my first True friend.
We had met in the 4th grade. He was the new transfer student coming to our class. I was the last new student and as child, I did move around a lot. I had just moved from Arizona...still very depressed and a little lonely.
As soon as he came to our classroom, he was instantly cool, because he had 2 eyes that weren't the same color.
"Hey Mia? Do You like him? You know...The new person?"My friend I usually hung out w/, Amela.
"Nope! He just seems Like any other guy, such a big show offy jerk!"
Then, later on in the day, we had science.
"Where are you going to sit, Nicholas?" My teacher Ms. Maris asked him.
"Hey, do you like Nicholas?" My classmate, kirby asked.
"Just shut up kirby, I don't want to talk to a jerk like you.."
"Just tell me if you do or don't."
"No I don't. Now shut up."
Then I saw him raise his hand, "MISS. MARIS!!!! Nicholas can sit next to us!!!!"
I started to say,"What the hell---"
"That's a great idea Kirby, Nicholas please go sit next to Mia and Kirby please?"
"Ok...."He said.
I ignored the both of them durning the whole class was going by. I sat there looking at the clock.
"Ok It's lunch time, Head downstairs!!"As soon as Ms.Maris said that, I went out the door. I just wanted to get out of there.
I got my lunch and sat down in my normal seat, waiting for Amela.
"Hey Mia!" I heard from behind me, I turned around and saw Nicholas,"Can I sit with you?" He said with big warm smile, ...Cute. He has...such pretty eyes... I felt my face getting red. I tuned around and said, "Do what you want."
"Thanks!" He said holding his lunch box. And sitting right next to me. He opened his lunch box and took out those goldfish crackers, "Do You want some, Mia?" he said holding out the bad filled with little goldfish.
"No I'm good," Taking a bite out of my penutbutter and jelly sandwhich.
"Do you know why I like Goldfish?"
"No"
"They always smile!" He said, Werid, "Have you ever met someone that was always smiling, no matter what?" I looked at him, He seems to play that role pretty nicely.
"I could think of someone," I said laughing a bit.
"Really?" He said with a confused face on, "I think those type of people are hard to find."
"You're werid." I said.
"I know," He answered back.
We started to sit next to eachother from that day on. I realized we had more in common then we both had hoped for. We both moved around a lot, we both had older siblings, and we both had family problems.
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"Nicholas?" I asked during a lunch period, "
"What?" He said.
"Do you know? You're My best friend..."
"Really? You are mine too!" He smiled really brightly as he laughed.
I was stunned, he thought the same way I did. I just wanted him to be my friend, but to know that he really cared about me, made me feel so happy.
From that day I was so Proud to be with him. And as each day passed on, my liking for him would grow more and soon it became love. But My love for him would soon disappear.....
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June, 24, 2004. A few days from the last day of school. During science class we had free time because it was our last science class for year. I was looking at the chamelion.
"Oh cool!" I said while looking at it , "It's chnaging color!!!" I wanted to show Nicholas.
"Nicholas!! Nicholas! Look! Look!"
"Not now..."
"But It's changing color!"
"God! Just go AWAY! Can't you tell that I'm doing something?" His voice seemed annoyed.
I never saw this side of him, "But..."
Then he said something so surprising,"You're so annoying! That's why no one likes you! The...The only reason why I hung out with you was...was because I felt bad for you!" I looked at how enraged he looked. My heart, it just stopped, for a second. I didn't get what was going on. I felt tears overbursting.
"Fine..." I said trying to keep it all in,"You don't need to be my friend, goodbye," At that moment the bell rang and it was time for lunch.
I didn't have an appitite. I was crying all through recess.
"Did...I do something wrong?" I remember saying to myself as I cried that day.
"The only reason why I hung out with you was...was because I felt bad for you!" I thought.
"Is that so?" I said to my self.
"...Mia...?"I heard and looked up. It was Nicholas. I wiped my tears away from my face.
"What...do you...want?"
"I'm...sorry..."
"I don't need your appology, Nicholas," I said as I started to walk away from him.
''Wait!" I felt my hand being pulled.
"What are you---"
"I'm sorry."
"Why should I forgive you?"
"Because We're friends."
"Do friends do that to eachother? Do they...Hurt eachother? Like you did to me?" I felt his arms go around me.
"Let go!"
"No...I'm sorry don't you get it? I feel really bad...I feel as if I'm the worst person on the face of the earth. I'm sorry Mia...I really am"
You're not...."I'm sorry, but... I don't want to be hurt again..."
Those were the last words I said to him.
I went to an all girls school after elementary. I made many many friends, who cared about me just like Nicholas did. I really loved them. And just with Nicholas, My love for all of them grew everyday when I was with them and still grows even if I don't see them as much. But, even with these great friends, I still thought about Nicholas. Whenther if it was how he looked like or if he's was doing alright. I would still think about him. Then I realized that I wanted to find out if he meant what he said, that was my whole reason to coming to this school.
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"Nicholas, There's something...both of us..have to...talk about.." I told him.
"I was thinking the same thing." he extended his hand, "Come on let's go to the roof top!"
I took his hand, "Sure..." He is weirder than ever....
"Look," he said as soon as we got up there, "I wanted to talk about the 4th grade..."
"Me...too..." I said.
"I'm sorr---"
I took a deep breath, "All these years, I've thought about of you."
"Huh?''
"All these years I've thought about the fight we've had. All these years...I wanted to know...If you really meant the mean things you said that day---"
"I didn't! I... wasn't being honest that day..."he said with his head down.
"Then, let me ask you...did you ever feel bad for me?"
"Ok I'm being honest...Yes I did...but only at first...after the first 2 weeks with you...I really...wanted to be with you."
"Then why---"
"Because....I only told Tori this...at that time...my parents...they got a divorce."He said.
"And that day... I was taking all my anger...out on you... and I feel really guilty for that...you know?" He said, "I really was the worst person on the face of the earth--"
"NO YOU AREN'T!!!'' I yelled, "You are one my best friends.... You are one of those people who saw me for who I was...that's why you're not the worst person on the face of the earth... You don't need to feel guilty...I already know how you feel..."
"How so..?"
"My parents were...seperated at that time...I didn't see my father for 4 years....That year he finally came back...and we were doing alright...I'm sorry u had go through the same..."
"I'm sorry..."
"Don't be...for anything!!!"
"Right!"
The bell rang, "We better get going..." I said.
"Yep!" He said..."Mia?"
"Yeah?"
"Thanks!" He said with his bright smile.
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